I find that it can be really easy to become overwhelmed and short-sighted in life. Recently, I was diagnosed with depression. It’s something that I’ve struggled with before and I knew what was happening. It took me a while to admit I needed help (I actually went to the doctor about something else and turned into a puddle), but I’m on the mend again. It’s something I always have to keep an eye on, but I can function and I’m fairly happy at the moment.
One of the ways I cope is by appreciating the little things, especially as being on maternity leave means that I have little money to spend on fripperies. I also find that shopping can make me feel worse- have I spent money on something I need? Do I already have four of this in a similar shade? Should I have spent this money?
So, as part of my coping strategy, I practise a bit of mindfulness. That is, I appreciate what’s happening in the here and now and see the little things. For example, some things that have made me happy this week:
1) This photo of D:
It was taken in the park on the first really sunny and warm day of the year. Those sunglasses are WAY too big for him, but I like the fact he appears to be channelling Gangnam Style. Also, Benn bought me an ice cream, which I gave a tiny amount of to D. The look on his face was hilarious.
2) Finally working out how to join the sleeves to the jumper I’m knitting. I was terrified, but now I’m looking forward to finishing!
3) When the baby is asleep about 11am, sitting down with a cup of tea and a small bar of Dairy Milk. It’s quiet and I can enjoy it.
4) When my nail polish lasts more than 24 hours (I will be posting about this in future.)
5) This panda video:
6) Being able to take my engagement ring to be fixed (the cat knocked it off the side and the amethyst in the centre went AWOL.) I chose a new, much darker amethyst that’s going to be AMAZING.
7) Hearing D giggle when I tickle him. This is a new thing.
8) Being amused when Benn becomes as baffled/outraged by Postman Pat as I do.
9) Learning the quite frankly ridiculous Makaton sign for ‘dancefloor’ (yes, while watching CBeebies. Shh.) and making my mum laugh on Skype when I showed her.
10) Wearing my clothes (especially a very expensive raincoat) that I haven’t worn since I was pregnant. It’s been slightly bizarre, but nice that I can fit back into them comfortably.
What small things are you grateful for?