I am always wanting to push myself and often do to the point that I end up exhausting myself. I can see that I’m doing it now, but I can’t stop myself. I don’t know why I need to keep doing stuff, but I do. I can’t even watch TV without doing something with my hands (knitting, sewing- minds out of the gutter, please…), much to my husband’s annoyance.
We’re not even at Christmas, yet I’m already setting New Year’s goals for myself. Whether it’s knitting myself something completely frivolous, getting my writing into shape (finally!), learning a few new skills I’d like to develop or reading more extensively, my list is getting longer. This also doesn’t account for the fact that I’ve also just done reasonably well selling some of my stuff at a recent craft fair and now planning new stuff for the next (all the while saying that I couldn’t possibly do the next one in March as I’m so busy.) Oh, and I also work in a job that is notoriously difficult to attain a decent work/life balance and I’m trying to revamp an extra-curricular programme for my department. So, you know, 2012 will be a quiet one, then.
In the meantime though, I’m looking forward to a quiet Christmas. This year has been hectic and I want to slow. down. But I know I won’t, because it seems to be physically impossible for me. I have so much nervous energy that I’m not entirely sure what would happen if I just stopped.